I felt a pang of guilt when a fellow volunteer from one of the organizations I joined before sent me a job hiring post for a non-profit organization, which I will surely decline even if I am looking for a new job now.The guilt stems from my unspoken desire to explore corporate and commercial laws, than public service. I felt selfish that my interest, for now, lies in those areas, rather than directly serving the fringes of society.Surely, I have a desire for charitable works, but I am not that noble to work for free. Above my social responsibility, my primary responsibility is to support my parents' now that they are growing older and to help my siblings as the first born.My deepest desire is to serve my family first.